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May. 6th, 2009

It's so weird not being healthy. I've always been healthy. I've never had any sort of problem with my general state of health, aside from struggling with my weight.

I know it takes awhile to recover from this sort of thing, but it's frustrating. Yesterday, I left a meeting and walked to the train stop to go back to my office. A train was pulling up to the station. Ordinarily, I'd just run to catch the train, but I knew I couldn't. It was frustrating as hell to watch the train pull up, empty, and pull away again while I was maybe half a train length away from it. Another train pulled up ten minutes later, and it wasn't that big of a deal, but it was one of those little things that reminded me that I'm not quite right yet.

On Saturday and Sunday, my friends got together to work on our art car. The parade rolls this coming weekend, and we had a lot of work to do on her to get her ready for the show. I didn't even go to the warehouse, because I knew that I can't do the stuff that's needed for the car right now. I can't lift more than ten pounds, and I can't really crawl around and get under things. I'm going to the warehouse tonight to help out a little, but I've been sworn to take it easy. That's not really in my nature.

I am going to try to go back to the gym next week. I don't know what I can really do, but this sitting around has been ridiculously frustrating. Especially because I was in such great shape when I got hit with this thing. I had just gone through a rigorous bootcamp, I was about to ride 180 miles on my bike, and I was feeling good about my increased endurance. I know that the second I hit the gym, I'm going to be back to huffing and puffing when I do cardio and I won't be able to do much in my core until I feel a little better.

But still, I guess this thing has sufficiently scared me to take my health a little more seriously. I'd been kicking around the idea of going for a full marathon next January, and I may still do that. Regardless, I'll start training as soon as I can for the half. Which means actually going to the gym every day and getting at least 45 minutes of good cardio in. I'm going to have to take it easy at first, until I'm fully healed from this surgery. But, I know that working out will increase my energy level and I'll feel better if I'm doing something active.

At any rate, this is all mainly whining about myself, but I've never gone through anything like this before, and it scared the living crap out of me.



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May. 6th, 2009 05:56 pm (UTC)
Use the bikes; I could do that at about 4 weeks post op, and I was still 35 weeks pregnant...
May. 6th, 2009 06:28 pm (UTC)
When I had my gall bladder out, it took me six weeks to feel somewhat normal and six months to feel like my old self again. Between the anesthesia and the normal healing process, it's a nasty one-two punch. It's frustrating.

My advice (which of course you may take or ignore as you see fit) is to talk to either your doctor and/or seasoned trainers and get some sense of how fast you can realistically ramp up to full training.
May. 6th, 2009 08:26 pm (UTC)
Yeah. I think I'm going to talk to Wooch, my trainer about it next week. There are plenty of people at my gym who have gone through various abdominal surgeries, from c-sections to tummy tucks to what I had, that he'd have a general idea of how to ease me back into shape without hurting me more.
May. 6th, 2009 11:51 pm (UTC)
It took my mom a long time to come back from her gall bladder surgery, and my friend (who is closer to us in age than Mom) a good couple weeks. It's a stressful thing.

Better to give yourself the time to rest now than to end up in sort of a half-healed limbo forever. Talking to your trainer is an excellent idea, though. I know that when I have had surgery or injuries, even being able to do a little bit of accomodated exercise made me feel better than strict bed rest.
May. 6th, 2009 07:23 pm (UTC)
*hugs and healing vibes*

it IS scary not being able to do stuff. but you're getting better all the time -- and being in such good shape right before will make your healing that much faster, too (even though it's more frustrading feeling).

lost fo love heading your way!


May. 7th, 2009 01:30 am (UTC)

Please ease back into it, and don't overdo the pushing yourself until you're 100%. I'm grateful this situation has turned out ok, and I don't want anything else to happen to you. I love that you are taking good care of yourself, though--you alway inspire me to do the same.
May. 7th, 2009 01:36 am (UTC)
I can relate
I can relate to the feeling. Back in college, I didn't go to the infirmary once. That has, uh, changed over the past few years. It's pretty normal for you to have the feelings that you do. Remember that recovery is not a straight path forward, so if you feel like you're sliding backwards, that's part of the fun.
May. 10th, 2009 08:10 am (UTC)
It's hugely frustrating, not being able to do what you used to. It'll improve, though! Exercise is always a good thing, where you can tolerate it. Hope you're feeling better soon.
May. 10th, 2009 06:46 pm (UTC)
as frustrating as all of this is, do you know if the stones showed up within a short time or were they there for a while? i know you talked about the ache in your shoulder and stuff, but were they able to make an estimate as to how long they had been there?

i guess the best advice would be just to have patience with the whole thing. just imagine if you had done the race and had this horrible flare up. it could have been so much worse.

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